Iris at Sting My Heart does us a great service every week. Every Thursday she hosts "Thankful Thursday" and gives us all an opportunity to highlight the areas of our lives we want to give thanks to God for. This week she has emphasized the topic of "mercy" and I couldn't be more thankful. For you see, God has been working with me and on me and through me to learn a very valuable spiritual lesson in my life. The funny thing was, I thought the lesson was for someone else. Surprise! I discovered instead that I was the student. Sometimes I wonder why God continues trying to work with such a hard-headed, strong-willed, opinionated and stubborn creature such as me. And then I remember that in His word He promised to "bring to completion the good work He began in me".
Here are some of the details. I was praying for someone. And I came up with a really great plan that I told God He should do. I just knew it would accomplish His purpose and it would be a wonderful Hallmark ending to a messy problem. I just KNEW He was going to take my suggestion and maybe even thank me for it. And I instructed several other people to pray for the same thing. Oh, the arrogance of it all! And when it didn't happen the way I had orchastrated I was hurt and disappointed and angry. I asked my husband to pray for me and the bad attitude I was developing. (Another thing to be thankful for - a praying husband!)
Thank God for His mercy! I could still feel His love for me even in the midst of stubborness and rebellion. He just patiently waited for me to understand. And he sent friends to help me along the way. Thank you Angie, you will never know how your encouragement spoke to my weary heart!
So today I have learned a great spiritual truth - God is God and His ways are not my ways - and more importantly MY ways are not HIS ways. I can't say I didn't already know this - but I sure wasn't acting like I knew it. I am so thankful today for God's great mercy towards me. I am still praying for the person and the situation. But my prayer has changed - I am no longer telling God how to handle it - I am simply trusting that He will.