Tuesday, January 8, 2008
My goodness. I didn't mean to take such a long blogging break. It just kind of happened. Sometimes my life just seems to run away from me and I feel like I am chasing after it, arms flailing, hair flying, doing everything I can to keep up with it. And sometimes I feel like I have not caught up at all. With my life that is. And I can see it running off by itself somewhere far ahead of me, making fun of me because I am so slow. It's not such a great feeling. I look around at other people and it doesn't seem to be like this for them. At least, it doesn't look like it from my point of view. People probably don't see it in my life either. We learn to "put on the face" and trudge on don't we?
I have never been one to make New Year's resolutions, I don't believe in setting myself up for failure. But there is something about a new year with blank calendar pages that sounds appealing to me. I truly want to try to change things, slow down, do only what is important, stop pushing myself. I want to stop running after myself. And I am trying to figure out how. So I would covet your prayers about this. I really want to try.
And what helps me is knowing that even though we sometimes say the year 2008 is a blank slate - it's not really. God knows what every day holds for me - He has known this since before I was even born. Wow! Nothing surprises Him. Nothing. I really need to know that.
And I am looking forward to a lot of things about this year:
I am going to meet my first grandchild. Wow - that takes my breath away. I can't wait to snuggle that sweet, warm little bundle!
My husband and I are going to celebrate 30 years of marraige. What a blessing this man is to me - I love him so much it scares me.
I will be turning 50. They say 50 is the new 40. It doesn't really matter to me. I am thankful for 50 years of life. It has been good.
There are lots of books I'm going to read, and crafts I'm going to do! I'm really looking forward to that.
My youngest daughter will be moving out and starting college. I don't know that I'm really looking forward to this - but I am looking forward to watching God work in her life and see her become the woman He plans for her to be.
My family is planning a big trip at the end of the year to celebrate all our milestones together. We will see how this all works out.
So, I'm back. A little tired. A little frazzled. A little unsure of how to proceed. But one thing I know is how much I have appreciated blogging. I love it. And I love reading about how you all handle life's issues. You inspire and help me and I love you for it.