Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

When I was a young mother I wanted nothing more than to be a stay at home mom. But when you marry a student, a studying-for-the-ministry student at that, the odds of being a single income family are slim. Very slim indeed. And so for the most part it never really worked out for me to be a stay at home mom. We were creative in my income earning endeavors. I worked nights. I had an in-home crafting business. I worked days and worked my hours around my husbands hours so in all those years we only had a daycare provider for just a few months. Mostly, as Dr. Laura used to say - my husband and I were our kids parents. But in my heart of hearts, I didn't want to go to work - I just wanted to be a mom. And I always said if I couldn't be a stay at home mom then someday, SOMEDAY I was going to be a stay at home grandmother.




I never realized how prophetic those words would become.




The last 12 years I have been working at the university that all of my daughters have attended and graduated from. Since Jess will be graduating in May it has made me realize that I now have some options.




And who doesn't like options?




My two daughters, who are working mama's, have realized I have options as well. And they have begged politely asked me to quit my job and help them take care of their babies since they have to work outside the home for this season in time. How I wish I could have had my mother looking out for my babies in those early years - it would have been so comforting to me.




The whole thought of having such an important role in my grandbabies lives fills me with joy and wonderment and in some ways I feel as though "the years the locusts have eaten are being restored to me". Not in the sense that I get to be a mother again, but that I get to enjoy this newest season of my life to the fullest in a way that will be most fulfilling and satisfying to me. I see it as a gift. An opportunity to invest myself completely in the lives of four little ones who have so many gifts and abilities and possibilities to offer our world. They are so amazing!




So, mid-January I will be hanging up my "Career woman" hat for good (I can't believe I am typing those words!) and putting on my Grandmother hat - on a 40 hour a week basis! I am so happy about this.




Do I expect it to be easy? No


Do I expect to be exhausted? Yes


Do I worry if I can do a good enough job? Yes


Have a wondered what I am getting myself into? A little




But overall, I have a peace about it. I have so many plans and ideas I can't wait to try out. I am putting together a little pre-school program for my 3 year olds and am working out a structured schedule to keep every day. I am a strong proponent of stucture and believe with four little ones it will be the key to success! I look so forward to being in their little lives so much of the time. This just feels like a natural progression for me and I couldn't be more thrilled about it.




The future is looking very, very happy to me!


9 comments:

Willow said...

I'm very happy for you. You'll love it!

Becky said...

That is the best news I have heard in a long long time. I knew your heart was here and I was just waiting for it to come true. Man ... you are going to be TIRED!!! The good kind. Congratulations!

Kathy ... better known as Nana said...

Congratulations! You are going to be so happy ... and tired, but a good and happy tired. ;-)

youniquemom said...

I'm so excited for you!

nanajobx said...

I can't believe how excited I am for you! Mostly I think it is because I am also excited for me! I had plans to retire Oct 31st but got the news that I had cancer. One week later they operated then 2 days ago I was given the "all clear" news. Today is my first day as a 'stay at home' grandmother, wife...woman! I as so blessed and so looking forward to the next chapter unfolding!!
I celebrate with you!!

Dawn said...

Well, welcome to the granny-nanny club! I have to say you sound much more organized and creative than I am - I sometimes feel like I just barely make it through the days. I really do need to start doing some pre-school type things with the twins, since they didn't get into preschool this year. I'll be anxious to see what you come up with, and wishing we could get together and talk! Congratulations on hanging up the workaday world routine!

Anonymous said...

I agree, I will always be a mom who wants to stay home, but the time came and after 12 years at home, I am back in the work force part time. I finally took my college course too for work!!! I am happy for you, you deserve it!!! And you are best Mia I know!!
April

Andrew & Melissa said...

this is amazing! I am so very happy for you, and your grandbabies :)

Karen said...

I'm so happy for you, Robin! How wonderful for you AND for your family. I bet your grandkids just can't wait to start seeing their grandma everyday.

Thank you for your lovely comment and especially for your prayers.