Thursday, March 1, 2007
I Think I'm Too Old For This!
I work at a university, not because I WANT to, but kind of because I HAVE to. I would much rather stay home, but that's a topic for another time. I have worked here for several years and never taken advantage of the fact that I can take classes for free. One day, after feeling so sorry for myself because I have to work outside the home and I can't stay home and be a mom, wife, and pastor's wife, I decided to buck up and make the best of my situation. I then decided that I was going to take some classes. Without giving it much more thought than that I signed up for Intro to Theology. What was I thinking???
My first day of class was very humbling. As I looked around me I realized that I was definitely the OLDEST person in the room, including the professor! As I felt the comings on of a hotflash I contemplated on the fact that not one person in that room knew what I was feeling. It took me several days to work through this. As I sit in class I labor intensively writing down every word the professor says with my Pentel fine point pen and my new paper notebook purchased especially for this class. All the other students have fancy little notebook laptops in colorful cases that they take notes on. Their computer desktops all have pictures of themselves with their boyfriends or girlfriends in various activities. Actually, from where I sit they aren't taking too many notes but they are playing an awful lot of solitaire and writing emails. Instant messenger pops up alot too!
The next awkward moment came with my first paper I had to write. We were instructed to write it in MLM style. What the heck is that? Thank goodness for my 16 year old daughter - she knew all about it and even gave me a handout with more rules and regulations for MLM style paperwriting then I will ever care to know. She never even told anybody (thank you honey!)
Today was my first test. I was so nervous I thought I was going to throw up for sure. The students around me didn't seem to nervous. In fact, they said things like, "If I flunk this I will just do some extra credit." I can't imagine! I have studied for 3 entire days and nights and memorized pages and pages of information. Today my daughter even asked me if I was studying in the shower. "Yes, how did you know?"
"Because I heard you."
"You mean I was talking out loud???" She just laughed at me. Well, I took the test. I think I did okay - at least it didn't seem too hard. I was probably one of the last 5 or 6 in the room. I won't get the results back for a while yet so I will continue to eat my fingernails for the next few days. I am so glad it's behind me though - I am longing to spend just a little bit of time in my sewing room this weekend!
Yep, I think I'm much too old for all this stress!